Last Day of 'Freedom'

      Today was quite a busy day, as it was the last day of preparation before I officially start teaching tomorrow. Almost the whole day was spent preparing slides, quiz assessments and planning lessons, with some leisure time in between (playing Overcooked! on Nintendo Switch with my sister on my mum's Smart TV was particularly fun!). As usual, I felt anxious thinking about tomorrow, whether I'll do well on the first day back to work, or make a mess of things. No matter how I try, I just can't seem to shake this habit of feeling anxious a day before teaching after a long break, even with 17 years of teaching. I guess some people never change!

     One of my biggest worries has nothing to do with teaching or managing online lessons. It is the thought that I might wake up late for class! Being on sick leave for a month after my fibroid removal surgery, I have been getting up later and later in the morning (latest record being 10.00 am), so I definitely need to reset my biological clock. But of course, this takes some time, which I don't have, so I have decided to spend the night at my mum's place. At least, she can wake me up if I really don't wake up on time. I know I can rely on her as she gets up at 6am every morning. My first teaching period will start at 8am tomorrow, so I need to be online by 7.45am latest to admit my students into the Google Meet class.

     My lazy self still kind of wishes that I had extended my sick leave, and enjoy another week or two of holiday, but I know I'll not be able to look at myself in the mirror again if I did something dishonest like that. Not to mention, I would have to see my doctor and lie to her that I still don't feel well enough to resume work. Lying is never good, and besides, I think she's sharp enough to notice that I'm not being truthful. No use jeopardising my own image that way. She knows I'm a teacher anyway. What would she think of teachers in general if she sees me behaving in such a disgraceful way? Definitely not worth the risk!

     Overall, I'm quite pleased with myself, as I have managed to prepare everything I need for the lessons tomorrow. This means that I can go to bed in peace, which I should be doing soon, as it's almost midnight. Fingers crossed that everything goes smoothly tomorrow!